Today i turned 18, just like 30 min ago my father called from Russia whom i EXREMELY RARELY seen when i was back there like maybe once a year. He missed calling like 80% of birthdays intentional or not. I feel like i cant call him dad at all, imean i raised myself emotionaly and my knowledge. Dont get me wrong my mom did alot fiancially ands he is a woman, she had a PhD in Economics so she established herself. And just now she gave me $1000 in USD and 500in CDN so maybe around $1400 USD. For some reaosn i dont feel like ideserve it not the point tha ti havent do positive things , i hav ealot but ifeel i can always to so much more. Everyone tells me i deserve it, goin to one of canada's best universities. but still for some reason I feel like i still have alot togo and its not time for celebrations. Well thats my rant. The year b4 iturned 17 and this year i listednt o 2pac's 1988 interview and it says 18 brings 3 things, Respect Responcibility and Understanding. Ima try to live that as much as ican. aigh thats my rant