My Will
All my life, things been wrong
Cause of this, I was forced to live strong
I had to stay low, when the gangstas shot
I had to leave, when friends smoked pot
All I ever wanted was a place to stay
Where thugz and crack never got in the way
But I wasn’t born right
I was born in 88, when no good was in sight
But I’m living for the day, when I can say
It was me that helped the gun stay
The one that can say I was the one to stop
When the politics got to hard
It was the truth I dropped
I wish I could go deep in the zone
But I will never go, cause I will always be alone
I wish that we could hold hands
Listen instead of dissin, but it won’t happen man
I don’t know if you do, but my life is growing sad
I stay up every night, and cry tears for the children
I wonder why this test is getting so hard,
And then I remember, the greatness of the reward
This compels me to do my best, to try and help the kids
I don’t want em to grow like I did
I don’t want em to see the garbage lids,
And see a child of God behind it
I don’t want em to see that I cry
And then get them wondering why,
But it will all be this way, and I don’t know how long
But if it his will, then by God I will get it done
I was too young to feel the pain, when my grandfather passed,
But now that I am older, I wish it wouldn’t last
I am grown, and looking at the meaning of life
I stare at my wrists, and picture the blade
Then I remember my life, and then think of the good
So forget the joker, I’m gonna play the ace of spade
I’m gonna forget the road to riches, and get on the freight train
My train of thought is on the best of time
And I will go the distance till that time is mine
And I’m gonna struggle, make my way through the fire
I’m gonna get back the times when it was me and the Good Sire
We gonna save the kids, and help em grow
They’re gonna look back too, but no pain will they know
I’m gonna keep the peace
The poor of the world will eat
Sleep, drink the wine,
It’s this dream of mine, that I am willing to die for
But will it ever happen? If it does, that will be our score
No more murder, no brother’s being sacrificed,
No more dead friends, we all will all live till the end of our time
No more bullet holes, no more children diggin holes
No more burying your brother, and burying the next
No more pregnancies, from multiple sex
No more death and destruction, no more decay
No more dissin, only “I love you” will we say
We all look forward to this time, and hope it comes soon
But some pick up the guns, and bring the doom
I want em to remember me, and lower the glock
I want em to stop and look at the clock
And wonder what happened to the time, I gotta get home
My momma’s cookin dinner, so no bloody dome
And in the end, we will all hold hands, and cry the tears
But wipe em away, and get back to working Sears
Go back to Macy’s, and you to Payless,
Cause there aint no more corruption, and this
Is how I leave my will
All my life, things been wrong
Cause of this, I was forced to live strong
I had to stay low, when the gangstas shot
I had to leave, when friends smoked pot
All I ever wanted was a place to stay
Where thugz and crack never got in the way
But I wasn’t born right
I was born in 88, when no good was in sight
But I’m living for the day, when I can say
It was me that helped the gun stay
The one that can say I was the one to stop
When the politics got to hard
It was the truth I dropped
I wish I could go deep in the zone
But I will never go, cause I will always be alone
I wish that we could hold hands
Listen instead of dissin, but it won’t happen man
I don’t know if you do, but my life is growing sad
I stay up every night, and cry tears for the children
I wonder why this test is getting so hard,
And then I remember, the greatness of the reward
This compels me to do my best, to try and help the kids
I don’t want em to grow like I did
I don’t want em to see the garbage lids,
And see a child of God behind it
I don’t want em to see that I cry
And then get them wondering why,
But it will all be this way, and I don’t know how long
But if it his will, then by God I will get it done
I was too young to feel the pain, when my grandfather passed,
But now that I am older, I wish it wouldn’t last
I am grown, and looking at the meaning of life
I stare at my wrists, and picture the blade
Then I remember my life, and then think of the good
So forget the joker, I’m gonna play the ace of spade
I’m gonna forget the road to riches, and get on the freight train
My train of thought is on the best of time
And I will go the distance till that time is mine
And I’m gonna struggle, make my way through the fire
I’m gonna get back the times when it was me and the Good Sire
We gonna save the kids, and help em grow
They’re gonna look back too, but no pain will they know
I’m gonna keep the peace
The poor of the world will eat
Sleep, drink the wine,
It’s this dream of mine, that I am willing to die for
But will it ever happen? If it does, that will be our score
No more murder, no brother’s being sacrificed,
No more dead friends, we all will all live till the end of our time
No more bullet holes, no more children diggin holes
No more burying your brother, and burying the next
No more pregnancies, from multiple sex
No more death and destruction, no more decay
No more dissin, only “I love you” will we say
We all look forward to this time, and hope it comes soon
But some pick up the guns, and bring the doom
I want em to remember me, and lower the glock
I want em to stop and look at the clock
And wonder what happened to the time, I gotta get home
My momma’s cookin dinner, so no bloody dome
And in the end, we will all hold hands, and cry the tears
But wipe em away, and get back to working Sears
Go back to Macy’s, and you to Payless,
Cause there aint no more corruption, and this
Is how I leave my will