I really don't have a topic, so I'm just going to go on a rant. Feel free to say whatever, but I am giving some insight, so you know a bit of what I'm talkin bout...
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My Grandma has been ill for about a year with Cancer. They reduced the cancer Tumor and we thought she was fine but recently it gotcaused a bunch of things to go wrong, so she is in her final days/weeks/months at the hospital.
Pretty much, my whole family was at the there. My family is big. (Mexican Family)
Anyway,
A cpl of comments I heard from some ppl were "OMG, you see how (s)he is laughing. Grama is dying"
I HATE those comments.
We are in the waiting room. If our family is gathered, (and it's rare to have everyone together) why can't we laugh and catch up? We can't be miserable and not eating, like some. Do they think our Grama wants us not eating, sitting here looking pale? Like wtf? We had our sad moments, for a few hours, now let us rejoice and lift our spirits as we eat. We were there for 8+ hours, some even more.
My grama is pretty much on her death bed, in high spirits making jokes and stuff bc that's just how she is...and you could tell she was bothered by certain ppl that looked negative or had watery eyes.
I seriously think that some weren't even sad. I think they were looking to be seen as "sad" to make it seem like they Loved her more than others. Why do people do this? Am I wrong for making this judgement?
Before I left, someone asked what I was doing tomorrow.
I said, I'm probably going to go to work if they call me in, work out, and then go to the hospital.
They looked at me like, seriously?
I didn't respond to their body gesture and facial expression of shock...but later i thought...
Do people think it's heartless to try to continue your normal life when death is around the corner for someone else?
I feel like my only outlet is to work out and that's how I've dealt with Death before. I think that if I seclude myself to just the hospital sitting around, it would be hard for me to get out and continue my normal life. If I live my life half normal, I think it wont drag me down and take long for me to recover from the pain/sadness i will feel when she does pass.
Do people generally set themselves up for more pain?
I even thought that maybe continuing my life half normal would make me set myself up for more pain bc in the future i might think, damn, i could have spent more time with her.
???
I dunno.
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My Grandma has been ill for about a year with Cancer. They reduced the cancer Tumor and we thought she was fine but recently it gotcaused a bunch of things to go wrong, so she is in her final days/weeks/months at the hospital.
Pretty much, my whole family was at the there. My family is big. (Mexican Family)
Anyway,
A cpl of comments I heard from some ppl were "OMG, you see how (s)he is laughing. Grama is dying"
I HATE those comments.
We are in the waiting room. If our family is gathered, (and it's rare to have everyone together) why can't we laugh and catch up? We can't be miserable and not eating, like some. Do they think our Grama wants us not eating, sitting here looking pale? Like wtf? We had our sad moments, for a few hours, now let us rejoice and lift our spirits as we eat. We were there for 8+ hours, some even more.
My grama is pretty much on her death bed, in high spirits making jokes and stuff bc that's just how she is...and you could tell she was bothered by certain ppl that looked negative or had watery eyes.
I seriously think that some weren't even sad. I think they were looking to be seen as "sad" to make it seem like they Loved her more than others. Why do people do this? Am I wrong for making this judgement?
Before I left, someone asked what I was doing tomorrow.
I said, I'm probably going to go to work if they call me in, work out, and then go to the hospital.
They looked at me like, seriously?
I didn't respond to their body gesture and facial expression of shock...but later i thought...
Do people think it's heartless to try to continue your normal life when death is around the corner for someone else?
I feel like my only outlet is to work out and that's how I've dealt with Death before. I think that if I seclude myself to just the hospital sitting around, it would be hard for me to get out and continue my normal life. If I live my life half normal, I think it wont drag me down and take long for me to recover from the pain/sadness i will feel when she does pass.
Do people generally set themselves up for more pain?
I even thought that maybe continuing my life half normal would make me set myself up for more pain bc in the future i might think, damn, i could have spent more time with her.
???
I dunno.
