I already said it in one of the other xx tribute threads but I see this one is the biggest so I'll say it again and add my short real life story..
Tupac's music means really a lot in my life, as well as his poetry and his whole life. His music cheered me up in bad moments, made me happier when I was sad, made me entertained when I was bored, made me think when I didn't, gave me ideas I wouldn't think of myself, thinking back it gave me memorable moments that I didn't really appreciate when they happened.
It also moved my emotions - turned me in to really deep mood, changed my way of thinking, helped me with my trobles when I was growing up.
There's also a strange story behind my first 2pac album.
I had my first girl I was really crazy in love with, it may sound silly as I was 13 at that time. That girl had a party at her flat (one of the worst hoods in Warsaw btw.) - a bunch of techno-trance music was played. By a strange twist of fate after everybody went home there was a 2pac - greatest hits album on one of the shelves, it wasn't even played at that party. She thought somebody forgot to take it, she asked people from the party about that cd but everybody said it's not theirs.
So after a week or two when nobody asked for it and after she listened to it for xxx times she lent me that album. I borrowed her a tape with rare Eminem bsides (yeah I listened to Eminem, Dre and Snoop at that time, but I still haven't found those bsides I traded or any info about them till this day).
I still remember her favorite track was "To live & die in LA".
When I got home I played cd2 first and I was stunned. I had that disk on repeat for few straight days. I was unbelievably impressed by "how long will they mourn me" at first. Then it was "Changes", then "to live&die in la". After that I bumped cd 1 with Hail mary.. yeah I still remember how awesome it was to listen to it. I played whole album for few months on repeat.
I remember listening to Hail mary when I got a text message on my mobile - we chatted a bit and then we broke up.
We still had phone contact, she became a really good girl when she was with me. I had really stressful situations with her but it was getting better with every day. She was a bad girl but with good heart. She was 14 at that time, smoked weed, drinked way to much and hanged out with worse people out there. There was time when she became a normal good girl. We were happy and all. She said I was the best guy she ever knew, I don't even know why we broke up, I tried my best but her stupid girl friends told her shit that she doesn't hang out with them because of me etc. she was really easily influenced by others. When she was with me she was nice and realised her friends are sluts but after few days we haven't seen each other those friends told her shit and made her think that she doesn't fit to me and we somehow broke up. After that we had phone contact, she visited me really often but I couldn't influence her much any more. Few times she even said she wants to be with me again but she started to hang out with old friends again, smoked even more, drinked and partied so thinking about myself I decided it's a bad idea.
I remember after few months from the moment we broke up she called me and said she's pregnant with a guy who was on her party. He was about 20, she was 15. We talked few more times, I tried to cheer her up but somehow our contact simply ended. Whenever I called she was drunk or high. She stopped calling me. After a year or more I've seen her with her kid. She tried to avoid me, she knew I see her but acted like she doesn't see me. I think she was ashamed. She looked totally different.. it wasn't the same person. I still can't believe that she ended like that. She had a good heart, she was good when we were together. Cute, sweet girl. It simply hit me how life can easily drastically change. Like if she would be just a bit more mature and she would make one decision to stay good she would probably be in college now.. she was really beautiful, and I mean really really beautiful and nice. That was my first big lesson from life.
Sorry for my long ass story but those memories just can't let me go now..
They're so associated with my evolving interest in 2pac and my most important personally real life story I ever had. Now it's the first time I wrote it online.
Anyway come to think about it, it was the best time of my life.. I was really happy when I was with that girl, because my life was great at that time, I was so careless, I was young, I learned life, I was stupid (if I wasn't I'd stay away from this girl from the start).... and because at the same time I started listening to Tupac.
Unforgetable memories.
Rest in peace Pac
