I think this issue ties in with his beliefs about god. His ideas about this issue changed alot,and if you listen to the beginning of resurrection, where he says that when you die you are either in heaven or just somewhere quiet, this shows that he wasn't really sure about death. He tried to convince himself that he was living in the right way in his music when he came out of jail, but he still mentioned god and things like ''forgive me lord I'm insane'' in when thugz cry I think. If you listen to So Many Tears, in that song he feels depressed because he thinks he's going to hell. But in '96 he always said he felt he was doing the right thing so he was headed for heaven. However when he was being carted into hospital he was heard screaming ''I'm dying, I'm dying.'' I think he was afraid to die deep down because he was spiritiaully insecure and never had 100% faith about what would happen to him when he died.